Several Cans

Homeschooling is kicking my ass.  Sasha's a great student and apparently I'm a decent teacher.  But it takes energy.

Canning pears is kicking my ass.  It's not...difficult, but it is meticulous and time-consuming and exact and hot.  And it also takes energy.

We should have enough dried zucchini chips soon.  68 half-gallon jars isn't quite enough to get us to next zucchini season, but it's getting close, assuming all our math is correct.  Not bad for dehydrating since the middle of June.  I wonder how many hours of work that accounts for?  Thankfully my mom is the peeling queen. (cue ABBA)

Sasha needs to stop getting migraines.  I'm waiting on a transfer to a pediatric headache specialist. [read:Sasha's 3d neurologist, more paperwork]  I'd like Sasha to be able to eat more food, sure.   But technically she has food to eat, be it stupid limited, stupid expensive, and completely unreasonable to procure.  However, she NEEDS to stop getting migraines.  It's killing me.  Thankfully she still plays and reads and eats and pees and poops.  But it's absofuckinglutely killing me, because I have to deal with her and take care of her and give[make] her meds and train her to deal with pain and how to relax and meditate and do occasional vomit cleanup etc., quite often with a migraine myself.  We are all going to die if she doesn't stop getting migraines.

And now between homeschool (which I honestly hate because it takes all my energy away) and food prep, I'm climbing back up the migraine ladder again.   So I added a new med, we'll see if it helps.

I want Sasha to stop getting migraines and to be able to attend school.  Then my limited energy can go toward growing/preserving food/trying to remember what it's like to be a human being.  Assuming I have to homeschool her for this entire year and I somehow DON'T get a household staff of any number, I don't see how we are going to come away from this in any sort of good way.  Everything costs more time and money and energy than I currently have.

I have a really hard time half-assing things, and there's too much accountability to half-ass school anyway.
We absolutely cannot half-ass food, or Sasha literally will not eat.
I haven't been to pilates in two weeks and I don't see my self going back until pear season is over at the earliest, which sucks and will only NOT help, but something's gotta give and I can't half-ass school or food.

So that's it.  One of us has got to stop getting migraines and achieve neuro-typical functionality.  That is the only logical answer.   <Readygo>